One thing I learned this weekend is that life is short. Really short and it doesn’t matter how old you are, how healthy you are or not healthy. When its your time its your time. Over the last 6 months I have known or have lost people in my life from natural causes or illness. I have found out that some people I have known all my life are having the battle of their life with cancer or other diseases that are killing them daily. It didn’t matter that they were young, old, bad karma or whatever. It makes me realize that no matter what is going in my world that there is someone out there who is in a worse position then me, unhealthier then me or grieving someone near and dear to their heart.

This weekend a very dear friend of mine is battling diabetes and acute pancreatis and is on a ventilator to help her breath and try and get her vitals under control. She is 24 years and vegetarian. She’s got a heart of gold, will give you the world if she can and yet here she is battling to stay alive while her loved ones pray that she will open her beautiful eyes and give us her big beautiful smile again.

Is life tough right now? Definitely, the economy is barely survivable. Can I change my life to make it a positive one? Of course I can and will do my best to live life completely and fully. Life is short, live it, love it and be grateful for all that we have. We only have one life to live and if we don’t live it, its taken sooner then we think.

Take a moment, tell those you care about that you love them, tell those your angry at that you forgive them and most importantly forgive yourself for all that you think you’ve done wrong. Love yourself so that you have the ability to love others.

Turning 40.....

That’s it! I’m 40! Who knew it would come that quick. LOL I swear it was only yesterday I was celebrating my 21st birthday at my cousins house with friends and family and now I’m suddenly 40 years old. WTF!!! I don’t feel 40. Ok well sometimes I feel old but for the most part I feel pretty good. I will say that once I turned 21, time flew by. People use to tell me that once you hit 21 time flies. The years go by quickly and before you know it your in your 40s. Well they were right.

Its been fun watching friends of mine as well as myself move into the 40 club. They say 40 is the new 30. We’ll see how that goes.

I spent a quiet night at home on my actual birthday with my family. Dinner, cake and just giggles with the kids. I was completely overwhelmed by the birthday wishes on facebook. Amazing how many people pay attention to the fact that your birthday is listed on your profile. It truly made me feel special if only for one day and I appreciated every best wishes that I received that day. It made what started off a bad day into a really nice day.

I finished my bday celebrations on Saturday night at a local club here called the Saddlerack. A country club that has some of the most eclectic crowd and music I have ever seen. You walk in, you feel comfortable, you dance, sing, drink and just all in all have a good time listening to the live music and the dj.
I realized that night that I’m surrounded by people who love, support me and really and truly want nothing but the best for me. They made me night special, made me laugh and made me feel like I was the only special one in the club. For that I’m forever grateful. Its always nice to feel like your wanted or the center of someone's life even if only for just a few minutes!

In the end I had a great birthday and I’m looking forward to what jumping into a new decade will bring me. I know its easy to feel like I have nothing to show for my first 40 years but then I remember where I’ve been and where I want to go and I realize that I’m okay. I’m blessed with an amazing and loving family and some of the best friends a girl can have.

Thank you for making my celebration so memorable!