I still miss you....

I’ve changed the presets in my truck

So those old songs don’t sneak up

They still find me and remind me

Yeah, you come back that easy

Try restaurants I’ve never been to

Order new things off the menu

That I never tried cause you didn’t like

Two drinks in you were by my side

I’ve talked to friends

I’ve talked to myself

I’ve talked to God

I prayed liked hell but I still miss you

I tried sober I tried drinking

I’ve been strong and I’ve been weak

And I still miss you

I’ve done everything move on like I’m supposed to

I’d give anything for one more minute with you

I still miss you

I still miss you baby

I never knew til you were gone

How many pages you were on

It never ends I keep turning

And line after line and you are there again

I don’t know how to let you go

You are so deep down in my soul

I feel helpless so hopeless

Its a door that never closes

No, I don’t know how to do this

I’ve talked to friends

I’ve talked to myself

I’ve talked to God

I prayed liked hell but I still miss you

I tried sober I tried drinking

I’ve been strong and I’ve been weak

And I still miss you

I’ve done everything

Move on like I’m supposed to

I’d give anything for one more minute with you

I still miss you…, yeah…

I’ve talked to friends

I’ve talked to myself

I’ve talked to God

I prayed liked hell but I still miss you…

I tried sober I tried drinking

I’ve been strong and I’ve been weak

And I still miss you

I’ve done everything

Move on like I’m supposed to

I’d give anything for one more minute with you

I still miss you…

I still miss you…

I still miss you……yeah…, yeah…

One thing I learned this weekend is that life is short. Really short and it doesn’t matter how old you are, how healthy you are or not healthy. When its your time its your time. Over the last 6 months I have known or have lost people in my life from natural causes or illness. I have found out that some people I have known all my life are having the battle of their life with cancer or other diseases that are killing them daily. It didn’t matter that they were young, old, bad karma or whatever. It makes me realize that no matter what is going in my world that there is someone out there who is in a worse position then me, unhealthier then me or grieving someone near and dear to their heart.

This weekend a very dear friend of mine is battling diabetes and acute pancreatis and is on a ventilator to help her breath and try and get her vitals under control. She is 24 years and vegetarian. She’s got a heart of gold, will give you the world if she can and yet here she is battling to stay alive while her loved ones pray that she will open her beautiful eyes and give us her big beautiful smile again.

Is life tough right now? Definitely, the economy is barely survivable. Can I change my life to make it a positive one? Of course I can and will do my best to live life completely and fully. Life is short, live it, love it and be grateful for all that we have. We only have one life to live and if we don’t live it, its taken sooner then we think.

Take a moment, tell those you care about that you love them, tell those your angry at that you forgive them and most importantly forgive yourself for all that you think you’ve done wrong. Love yourself so that you have the ability to love others.